Wednesday, July 30, 2008

frustration

I'm frustrated. :(

I wish I felt secure. I just don't. I know things will feel better once school starts but right now I feel so lost. I just wish I knew what I was doing. Every day I feel more confused and I keep thinking about all the things I need to do. Plus, I feel very restless when I am at home. This place still doesn't feel like my home. I need my apartment to be a sanctuary...a place to rejuvenate and escape to. If I'm honest with myself, I like to be in my classroom more than here. Of course, when I'm home, all I do is think about things I need to do back at home. I wish I could just leave my work at school....but being a teacher really is a full-time job.

I am so excited to meet my kids tomorrow. I have to remember that they are why I do this. :)



Meet the Teacher Night: TOMORROW!!
First Day of School: 4 more days!

2 comments:

talithakoum said...

:(

well, during the school year you can come hang out at BC if you want...lol.

i'm so excited to hear about your kids!!

Mandi said...

hey, i feel like this and im no where as close as you to starting. kim, you were always the one of us with her head on straight and able to do everything perfectly, even when you were stressing out about it! i know that you will be an AMAZING teacher, from day one. just let yourself relax and enjoy the precious kids entrusted to you! love you.